BlushSpirals

I read a quote that said “one day, you’re future will outweigh your past, and you won’t have to talk about it anymore”

Those words could not be more true. I used to be a trauma survivor, now I beam at the thought of just being ordinary.

Ordinary things

Ordinary days

Ordinary life

Nothing spectacular but special in its very own way. I used to want to be a shiny star that excelled at everything I touched, and now I realize I’m fine with being average. I’m fine with being a regular Joe Schmoe because that takes a monumental amount of pressure off of me.

I don’t have to be the best. I just have to be present, in every are of my life.

I used to struggle a lot with inconsistency. I actually used to say that I was only consistent in my inconsistencies. And now I know it’s because I was hyper focused on excelling in one or two areas while the other areas faded to the wayside.

I am happy to say I am more well rounded and balanced now, and that I don’t need to use my trauma to have a platform to stand on. I am fine with being ordinary and just embracing each day that passes while keeping my creativity contained in my little archive so that I can look back from time to time and say, remember when?