BlushSpirals

The other day, Amy asked me to play “in a few minutes” and I asked her, do I say that to you a lot? That I’ll play in a few minutes, and she said yes.

My heart sunk. I don’t want my kid to think she comes second to anything in this world.

Sometimes I can get so carried away with my own agenda that I forget the very reason I do anything is for her. I don’t want there to ever be a day that she doubts that she is the center of my universe and I don’t love her because I love my child more than words could possibly say.

So I’ve started a new habit. After work, I put my phone away. I focus on Amy and I spend time with her, like real quality time. We don’t have to do anything fancy but I think her just knowing that I am present and not preoccupied means so much to her.

My little girl is my absolute world, and I want her to always feel loved and appreciated and not put to the side.

I am excited about our game night tonight and all the fun we are going to have.

I’ve also realized I want to use this space not only for essays but to catalog everyday life, so that when she gets older and reflects back on this she can not only see into my consciousness, but also see into my day to day life. This is an archive specifically for my baby girl.