BlushSpirals

Feelings

Tonight you had a break down like I’d never experienced before. I know the sounds of your cries and usually their angry cries of I want it my way or I don’t want that. But tonight it was a cry of sadness, and as I cradled you I whispered in your ear, “it’s ok to feel things and not know why” “it’s ok to be sad and let big feelings come out” “I’ll sit with you through this, I’ve got you” and I meant every word of it. You didn’t fall asleep until 10:45pm and I scratched your belly and back and hair until you finally drifted off to sleep. 

Earlier today I wrote a letter to God of just how thankful I am. I asked for a sign to show me without a doubt how real He is. And tonight, with you I got the clearest sign. 

You see when I was a little girl, I was labeled as too sensitive and too much. Too deep and too emotional. But babes, I want you to feel every ounce of your emotions and know it’s ok and I will ride with you through the waves of your highest high and lowest low. Tonight I broke a generational pattern of being told not to feel, instead I allowed you to feel it all but know that I am here comforting you and that I can be your safe space. 

I want you to know you can always run to me no matter how difficult the situation you are going through is. I will always be your safe zone of unconditional love. Together we are breaking generations of patterns that told us we were too much. And I am teaching you that you are just right exactly as you are. 

Amelia, you are deeply loved, always.