BlushSpirals

I’m sitting in the backseat of the car next to Amy and we’re on our way to Busch Gardens. She couldn’t be more excited about this day, and I couldn’t be any happier in this exact moment. Dads driving while mom co-pilots and Amy is just back here whistling through the straw of the Busch Gardens cup giggling away. The sky is blue, whispers of clouds and it’s 70 degrees of perfect outside. 

Moments like these make me so thankful for how my life is right at this very point in time. I’m not hoping, wishing or wanting anything more than these ordinary moments. 

Two years ago, if you asked me if I thought I would experience this kind of fullness in life again it would have been a hard no. I didn’t picture ever having a genuine smile on my face again. It would be a forced smile, not a real one. Today, I am smiling ear to ear with excitement of how my life is unfolding right before my eyes. 

I’ve done the inner work to deserve this. I’ve faced my demons and came out alive. I’ve conquered the shame of my past and can now walk forward in proud humility at how all I’ve been through has made me who I am today. 

Life couldn’t get any sweeter. I remember  quote from vanilla sky that said something like “without the bitter sweet just ain’t as sweet.” Well, I’ve had so much bitter in my life that getting to these ordinary moments, sweet is just perfectly sweet. 

Life has thrown me so many curve balls that had knocked me down, and even at the worst possible hit I get up and get back in the game. Life is just too beautiful to be stuck in the past and I am so thankful that I can be completely present for ordinary moments like these.